6.23.2015

why am i schooling at home, you ask?

why am i doing school at home?

lots of you have asked.
(lots of you haven't asked.)
i also ask myself this question all the time.

why am i doing it?
it's not like i couldn't really benefit from a few hours of quiet everyday.
we all know i love silence.

i am not anti-public school.
i am not anti-private school.
i am not anti-social settings (well maybe sometimes).
i like people.
my kids like people.


so here is my place.
right now, my place just for today.

i started teaching them in hawaii from (in my mind) necessity.
it started with me thinking,  "i really don't think i can handle this, but i'm going to try.  I'm going to do it anyway".

and it somehow (surprisingly for me) turned into me liking it!


i realized so many things about myself and my children.

i started learning things with them.

i realized that they are learning possibly just as much from watching me learn things and modeling an open interested mind as actually learning the thing.
we read the little house on the prairie series.
they begged for next chapter after next chapter.


my mind had never really wrapped around the story of our country, but we all read our history book and were inspired with patriotism as our founding fathers wrestled with the declaration of independence.
we learned and cringed over their first exposure to the horrors of slavery.
we talked and discussed wars and national struggles.


we hugged little bodies when math was so so incredibly hard and helped them realize that they truly must try again.


i watched them get mad when i edited first drafts of papers.
i smiled and kept my chin up after more anger at the second draft edit.
i sighed as they REALIZED that that's just how you do it. It's NEVER perfect the first time. or the second. or even the third.


i read journal entry after journal entry and watched them morph and from crumpled, mis-spelled fragments to confident strong strokes of hilarity.

i started by doing parent led art projects and watched their love for artistically expressing themselves (through whatever art supplies we had lying around) become part of our daily lives.

they pretend all day long.


they argue, but then they work out problems on their own.

they have responsibilities.

they are getting older and their chores and jobs really do help me and make our home a place i want to be.

i could go on and on, but i think you get the picture.
our family dynamic completely changed.


and now we live in a place that has many many good school options. public, private, charter…you can send them anywhere you want.
i was ready to do that.


but, now i have to ask myself if i even want to?
is that best?

i mean, it might be nice.
the good part would be to have quiet space.
to be able to think on my own.
to be able to have a little bit of time for myself.
but in thinking about those good parts, i sometimes forget to think about the challenges of putting my kids back into (possibly 3 different) schools.
i don't really need to do a list do i?
(homework, teacher's ideas, fast paced schedules, social dynamics….)
the challenges aren't impossible.
i'm not afraid.
i just add up the pros and cons on both sides, for US and…..

i pick school at home.
and let me add, so do my kids.
if they were begging to try out school, i don't think i'd say no.
i'd let them go.


i am not interested in forcing this.
i don't think homeschooling is the key to life.
in fact those that do are the reason i hesitate to get involved with homeschool groups.
(even though I DID just sign up for one to start into in the fall…pray for me)


we are all just figuring out this parenting gig.
no one is an expert.
our story is different from yours and homeschool fits for us.


reedo travels a lot. and we have been asked to move around a bit and that part of our story probably isn't over.

the homeschooling works with that.
if i have to follow verizon wireless around the country so that my husband can provide for me staying home and being the mom to our children, then i don't need teachers and principals and schedules in the mix too.
i start to feel too smothered.
and when i know i can just teach them myself and that it is actually great for us, is there really any other choice?
is there something ELSE that i ought to do?
i don't think so.


for now, this is my place.


i am always looking for my humble place.
and this is it today.

ask me again tomorrow.









7 comments:

  1. great post! its been pretty cool seeing your homeschooling adventures unfold. i bet its hard, but you make it look so fun! deep down I've always wanted to homeschool, but my husband (who was homeschooled) chooses not to have our boys be and I've had to settle in that decision, understanding it more now. but i love having homeschooling mama friends who inspire me with ideas i can still use! keep up the good work! appreciate you!

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  2. Loved this post. I was a reluctant homeschooler when we lived overseas a few years ago. We all ended up loving it so much and I was very sad when that season ended for us. We still talk about all of the things we learned together. This post reminded me of a great time in our lives during a really hard time in our lives.

    Have to say, I'm so glad you're blogging again!

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  3. This is awesome. I was a reluctant homeschooler who now loves it! I agree it isn't the answer to everything but when it works it's awesome. Good luck!

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  4. I really love this post! I just finished up my first year homeschooling, and it does always seem to bring up a lot of questions from others...thank you for not talking curriculum! I really love how personal and unique it can be for each family. Good luck with your home school group this fall! But first...happy summer!

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  5. I am so happy you are blogging again! I love your perspective on life so much!

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  6. Your blog is so encouraging. Even when you are processing things that don't mirror my life exactly, your perspective is real and beautiful. Thanks for throwing your words out into the Internets when you are led to do so! Also, if you can, would you share where you got that awesome huge world map that's in your picture above? I've looked a little online and could not find one like it.

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  7. As the end of the year comes, I always think back to all the things I wished I would have blogged about and all the pictures that went 'unposted'...I came to your blog tonight because yours is one of my favorites. Love the real life you share and hope all is well with you and your family! Happy 2016 I hope it is filled with so much joy and many blessings!

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