Have you ever had a day burdened with negativity? That was me today. I love the weekends, but today I just couldn't be a happy camper inside. Every small annoyance seemed magnified. Everything my kids did seem frustrating, everything my husband said seemed to rub me the wrong way....until by the afternoon I had a raging head ache and I went to lie down.
God sent me Elisabeth Elliot(as he often does) to hold a mirror up and show me what was happening...spiritual opposition.
"The devil is evidently attacking you in your innermost heart, not causing you to doubt so much as causing a spirit of discontent. Fortunately, we both know that temptation is not a sin, it is yielding to temptation that causes us to sin and I feel that you must count it joy that you are passing through these times of difficulty, for they are sure signs that the Lord is blessing you..."
YES! that is it! the spirit of discontent! I need to FIGHT that. Do you?
"...It comes from the flesh and self-introspection. It is good for us to look at self and know how loathsome it is, but with one look at self we must take 10 looks at Christ....No one goes to church more than the devil does, and no one appears as an angel of light as he does. We are in the thick of facing powers of darkness who are determined to rob us of Him and rob God of us, and you and I have just got to hope in Christ and rely on Him for His spirit to direct our thoughts, our ways, and our works so that it is not us but Christ in us."
Isn't it amazing that God just provided those words for me? I could feel all this attack as it was happening, and was trying to have self control and focus on contentment and I asked for help and he gave it. Why am I surprised?
"In every event He seeks an entrance to my heart...The very cracks and empty crannies of my life, my perplexities and hurts and botched-up jobs, He wants to fill with Himself, His joy, His life."
Ok, so now it is 9:30 and my circumstances haven't changed. BUUUUT, I WILL FIGHT! and as Scarlett O' Hara says "after all, tomorrow is another day".... so I'll get another chance tomorrow right? I'll try to be more grateful, no more spirit of discontent...I promise.
Lord Help me!