embrace me

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why is this girl so darn cute?she claims to have greasy hair....yah, right.
but i have been thinking a lot about this idea to challenge yourself to be in photographs.i have been thinking about how it really is true that when i look back on photos of my mom, i never think about if she has a double chin or her tummy.i look right at her eyes and wonder how she felt that day.what was happening in her life?how did she feel about my dad?was she in a fight with a friend?was she frustrated in her job of being a mother?was she embracing her life or disappointed....that makes me want to take more photos of myself...somehow.to give my kids the gift of a visual image of their mother that lasts beyond my life.that idea means something to me.i am a visual person and i love photographing relationship.and love looking at photographs that capture relationship.so it isn't too far a stretch to think that my kids might find value in that too.i am not sure how i will accomplish this though.a tripod?teach my kids more about photography so that they can help?yah! i like that idea!most pictures you see of me on this blog are from photo booth or taken by tiny ty (my 5 year old).but here are a few taken by my reedo when we took a family walk up in the hills the other day.i gotta say...not too shabby huh?

 this one(below) is my favorite.

ok ok, i took those last two.

but here is one that i didn't like my face in, but am adding anyway.

this it the one that inspired the thoughts about how silly it is to think so hard about double chins and weird over perfectionist ideas about how i look.

it's fine, right?

good hair. good arms even!

and i am running and playing with my girl.

but still, i'm thinking i want to get rid of it since my face isn't my favorite expression? dumb.

i tell you people! it's always something!

so i am stamping down those controlling, self conscious feelings and posting these babies and i am promising more to come.

more self portraits.

i promise.

for my babies.

and for now here are some i took up in the hills too....

 um. he is so so handsome, i know.
he is easy to photograph too since he doesn't change his expression when he sees me coming.
i make weird faces when i see a camera coming.
he stays just. the. same.
in fact i think photographing him needs to be more common as well...
since everything i said above applies to their daddy too....
plus, it's fun.
as long as he likes me at the moment :)
hmmmm.

and here is one i took of myself that day.

i am trying, see?