another set of eyes

first of all

thank you for the supportive response to my post about my marriage.

it was hard to post.

after-all i did have to go through the extra step of getting it approved by reedo and then, of course, the conversations that would follow a post like that :)

i am really glad i did it though since apparently i'm not the only one out there who feels like a lame lady who apparently has to work HARD at just being my husband's friend!

i was glad that you all piped up to comment too because then other people saw that and saw that lots of people feel the same way and that just helps sometimes, ya know?

i think marriage being hard work can be surprising for some.

especially if you had a pretty romantic idea when you got married (or got married at 21 or something...not naming names)

so, anyway, thanks for that.

i think feeling not alone in your thoughts and feelings is one of the reasons blogging is so therapeutic.

and that brings me to another idea that i have been having lately.

which is revolving around me trying to figure out my own motives for things and then analyze them..surprise surprise!

i ask myself why i like to take photos and then share them.

and i think the answer is that i want to see the beauty around me and try and capture it (like i've said before) but then, wouldn't just taking the picture be enough?

but i like to show you.

and i think, why do i show you?

and i have to tell you that lots of times my kids do or say something brilliant or i capture one of their beautiful faces with my camera and i STILL think, after 9 years, i have to show my mom...

she would get this.

after all these years i have learned to manage the loss of being able to share with her.

i call my sisters.

i have good friends.

and guess what?

i've realized lately that sharing with you and getting your feedback really helps fill that void too.

so i took this picture.....

and thought...

i can't wait to show....YOU!

i mean WOW!

isn't she so beautiful?

(ok, its not quite the same as my mom...i wish i could just look at this picture with her and exclaim about it with her....but, on the other hand i am so glad to be able to share it at all)

so thank you friends.

thank you for being another set of eyes.

it makes me feel less alone.

it really does.

and that is Jesus business in my life.

trading loneliness for joy.