we said goodbye
and it was very very hard
we'd lived in our house since my first born was around 9 months old.
i had lived within a 30 mile radius for all of my humble 33 years.
it was way harder than i thought to leave.
i mean i never considered NOT going, i just didn't consider how physically and emotional straining it would be to leave.
when everything was out of our house, i was reminded of his mercy with this little sign.
a random copy of this old song that my sister, val, had sung the solo for in high school.
i remember just closing my eyes in happiness when she'd perform it and really just love singing the back up vocals while she sang her heart out.
and then we just had to leave and not go back.
we went to some of our favorite hangouts.
i sat for a while and felt a little sorry for my own personal loss of familiarity.
yes, i realize that God has something better, but i just allowed myself to feel sad.
hotels are a fun and fancy distraction.
then we flew away!
i didn't take many pictures.
i was seriously pretty stressed.
and my tension was really growing.
it's hard to describe.
we had something like 16 bags??
and by the time we got here, i am telling you, i felt horrible.
i'm just being honest.
it was really really hard.
my head felt like it would explode.
everything was beautiful, but i felt sick!
it's taken a few days to calm down.
everything is unfamiliar.
i am completely un practiced in that.
i have no skills so i am like a little baby.
but today reedo went to work and the kids and i put all of our stuff away in our cute little beach house that we will be in until we find a permanent home.
our cars were delivered...
i hung a banner.
i helped the kids journal about their first sights in hawaii.
life goes on right?
i guess right.
and ella will keep singing full voice, even when we all
ask beg her to stop with the barbie songs...