i was pulling out my wedding video a few night ago, when i wanted to show some friends a picture that was in our wedding montage.
(do people still do that? you know make a video of a bunch of photos of the bride and groom to show at the wedding?)
and i stumbled upon this little super short summary video with a recording of my family (me, my sisters, my mom and my dad) singing behind it.
i am really grateful for this.
of course i can't watch it with out crying.
i miss my mom so much.
it overwhelms me to watch her alive body.
it hurts in a beautiful way to see what my life used to be like.
i love what my life is now.
but this is beautiful too.
and my groom was and is so incredibly sweet.
and be so grateful for this memory with me.
ps. my computer wouldn't even read the dvd that this video was on.
so i used my iphone to video our big tv while it played.
that is why you can see my reflection at one point.
and also why you can hear a little sniffling....